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| Sunday, February 22nd, 2009 | | 8:14 am |
An actual post
For some reason, I was compelled to look through some of the entries that I posted back when I first started this. While reading them, I started thinking about how much life had changed, and then I realized that it had also been about 8 years since I had written some of these things. It seemed to my like I used to just bitch about things... reading through that, I looked like some kind of manic depressive that would change with the wind... maybe that is just how it seems to me. I felt annoyed just reading it, to be honest. It's strange though, because reading through some of them, or even the comments, I can recall typing it all out and remember (sometimes vaguely) what I was talking about. I started this as a 17 year old junior/senior in highschool, and now I am going to be 25 years old in 2 months, I've been working in the same office for about a year and a half, I have an actual adult job with a team of 20-30 people under me and enough income to sufficiently survive, and to top it all off, I now have a week-and-a-half old son. All of these things that I have now are great, seriously, but sometimes I look at things that I see other people my age doing, and I can't help but think "what if I had done something different with my life?". The idea that even the smallest action can effect the future, it mind-blowing to me. I have a really bad habit of just thinking about past actions and consequences of those actions; I love doing it, but at the same time, I hate it. I drive myself crazy just thinking about how different my life could be if I had done something that I was just too lazy to do when I was younger, or if I have avoided doing something because I was too damn stubborn to listen to advice. I am not trying to say that I want it to be different, because I enjoy my life, and without the decisions I have made, I wouldn't know this intense love that I experienced with the birth of Jackson. I just think about my friends back in Corpus and they are out shooting videos and skateboarding/surfing all day. They live such a laid-back and enjoyable life. I feel like I am wasting mine by sitting in a cubicle for 8-10 hours a day. I never saw myself being that kind of person. I always figured that everything I did in life would be fun. I want to be out at the beach again. I want to live someplace where I can hop on my bike and get to where I need to go, and the weather is fine to do that. I have been thinking a lot about Florida and California (San Diego) lately. There are grad school programs there that I am really interested in, but I know that Andi won't move to either of those places, and it drives me insane. To know that I want to go back to the coast, but this time a nice one, and she doesn't want to do that. Things can be kind of rough at times, but I think that is to be expected when you pay the full rent, all utilities (except cable), car payment, entertainment, and basically have 3 mouths to feed. Andi has less than a year of school left, and will be able to work again in about a month (she hasn't had a job since... June?). Just another thing that I have learned about "adult living"; shit gets hard sometimes. Once she is working, this will be so easy. The fact that I can hold things down on my own, pretty much, is showing me a whole lot about where I am in life. I don't want people (Annie, because you are the only one that reads this, I think) to think that I am depressed, or sad, or disappointed with my life, because I'm not. I'm excited, I have a great family, a great job with co-workers that actually care for my well-being, and great friends. Oh yeah, I also just found out that I am going to the US Virgin Islands in March 2010 for my cousin's wedding... I've been craving a real vacation for so long. I took a break because I had something I needed to work on, and now I can't remember the purpose and point behind this. Current Music: Pussa Pussa- Alligator Dave | | Tuesday, December 30th, 2008 | | 8:29 am |
News
Well, I haven't updated this in a while, so here is my only real news; I'm going to have a son around late January-Mid February... his name is Jackson. Current Music: Mars Volta- Goliath | | Tuesday, March 4th, 2008 | | 8:19 pm |
| | Wednesday, August 1st, 2007 | | 12:36 pm |
plans
Everything is kind of up in the air right now. I have an interview in Houston this upcoming Tuesday, I have to send out more resumes to various companies in various cities, I need to register for the GRE, still have no apartment of my own after the 12th, and no more school in ... 2 days?! Shit... that is pretty wild to think about. I need to figure out what I want to go to Graduate School for. Right now I am thinking about going for an MBA or an MA in Mass Communications.In the past few months I have thought about the possibility of getting a Phd and teaching at the university level. I think it could be pretty fun actually. Eh, we'll see. I guess I will just continue to drink some really good beer. I am planning on starting to homebrew also. I also really want a band. | | Monday, July 16th, 2007 | | 11:52 pm |
Yearly Update
Well, I am going to graduate soon, so that should be pretty nice. I applied for a job and didn't get it, but that might have been a blessing in disguise. I looked around at the company's website and they need a Malt sales rep. at the Houston branch. I figured that Ii would apply for that and the malts manager here told me that he would call them up and tell them all about me before I could even get my resume into them (He wanted to hire me for the same job in Corpus, but his supervisor wanted the other guy becuase he has more sales experience). Well, last night I tell one of my regulars at the bar how I didn't get the job afterall, and this woman that he is with says "Oh, my sister works for that company in the accounting department. Her boyfriend is one of hte major sales guys there, let me give you her phone number and pass your name along." So she gives me the number for her sister to get ahold of her. THEN I am talking to my dad tonight and tell him that I didn't get the job here but am trying to get the one in Houston and he tells me that he just got a new job offer that is going to pay him more in Houston, so he is actually moving there in a month. My lease here is up on August 12th, my cousin's lease (he lives in Houston) is up on August 13th and he needs a new roommate because his current one is starting grad school. I never really considered living in Houston before and I think it had something to do with that fucking flood I got stuck in a few years ago. Now maybe I will go for it... who knows what will happen with me. Anyway, that is where I am right now in my life. Still live in Corpus Christi and I have a girlfriend named Andi. We've been together for around 6 months now. Current Music: Hot Water Music - Sons and Daughters | | Saturday, September 16th, 2006 | | 2:50 am |
my money is going to smell like pickles
I decided to start keeping my money from my tip-out in a pickle jar. I just finished the pickles yesterday, so the scent is still strong. I want to become one of those people that buries jars of money all over their yard. Whether it be because I don't trust banks, I just don't like them, or I just don't want to use them, I want to do it. Naturally, I wouldn't put all of my money in there, just some of it. I have been considering going to Graduate School lately and getting an M.A. in Mass Communication or something along those lines. Also, I have been thinking about taking a trip to Maine, and possibly moving there. I don't really know much about the place. I know that the biggest city is Portland and that in 2000, there were just under 65,000 citizens of the city. I know that it is cold and that it snows there. I also know that there are 17 million acres of forests. I have this picture in my head of what it would look like. The University of Maine also offers an M.A. in Mass Communication. A round trip ticket to go there for a week would cost roughly 800 bucks. I have gone a week without beer, or any alcohol for that matter and it actually feels really good. I was tempted because at the gas station down the street, they are selling 6 packs of Shiner Long Necks for 5 bucks. I've started eating better also and drinking lots more water. My new bike is going to be here on Wednesday most likely and once it is here, I am going to ride the shit out of that thing, I'm pretty excited. I only owe $135.16 on it and then it is paid for. A few days ago, I got another idea for a short-film I want to do. I think I will try to make it this semester, the only problem is that I don't really have any of it written down. Looks like I have another thing to keep me busy for the next few weeks. Current Music: Pretty Girls Make Graves- The New Romance | | Monday, September 11th, 2006 | | 1:20 am |
Show that you are the best patriot by having the biggest flag!
Take this flag pill so that when you shit, you shit a flag! Sure it sucked, but get over it already. I think I was tired of hearing about it on september 12th. I am still alive and kicking. Decided I have been drinking too much lately so I am not going to drink for a month, that's right, a month. I have to turn down my free beer from work, I have to avoid the beer section at the grocery store, I have to be DD on dollar pint wednesdays, dollar jack thursdays, and whatever night we decide to go drinking... they decide to go drinking. I really want to, but at the same time I don't. One of my friends is going to smoke as much as possible until we get our bikes, then he is going to stop. I ended up getting drunk twice last sunday, that is always nice. My hair is longer than it has been in I don't know how long. Two people commented on it in one day, it made me feel like a badass. I work at a pizza place down here in corpus, I drink a bunch of beer, I go to school, and I play my guitar. I am also getting a new bike in about a week. Need new shoes and new jeans. I still need to buy my books. I'm about to start reading God Bless You, Mr.Rosewater by the great Kurt Vonnegut. I really enjoyed watching the rain and listening to the Beatles today at work. I can't stand this one fucker that I work with (two actually). Last night I bought a bottle of MD 20/20. Tonight I threw out a bunch of food that was old and/or moldy. Maybe I will start writing in here again on a more regular basis. Shit, maybe I will even put a picture sometime. Hope you are doing alright if you are reading this. Current Music: The Briefs- We Americans | | Saturday, April 8th, 2006 | | 6:30 pm |
still not dead
The subject says it all. I also just showered for the first time in over 48 hours and I am also going commando... freeeee ballllls | | Thursday, June 9th, 2005 | | 2:01 am |
I'm alive.
Well, I have moved back to Plano for the summer and I have been here for about 3 weeks already, maybe more. I am still in the process of finding a job, but another window of opportunity has opened up for me, I just need to make sure it doesn't close on me this time. Things have been kind of wierd lately. I had a discussion with my friend Sara about this a few weeks back while driving back to our houses from a bar. She goes to school in San Marcos, but she grew up here too. We got to talking about how Plano doesn't really feel like home anymore, our parent's houses don't at least. But San Marcos (for her) and Corpus (for myself) don't feel like home either. It is kind of a strange feeling. I tried to make plans to eat lunch with someone a few days ago, but I doubt I will ever hear anything about that from her because that is just how she is. I don't think she will ever hear anything back about it from me because well... I just don't really care anymore. I met up with someone I hadn't seen in a while and that was interesting. I wish my friend Sara was still around because I miss her like hell. Maybe I shouldn't have said "things have been kind of wierd lately", I probably should have said that I have been feeling kind of wierd lately... I can't really explain how I feel. I am sure things will be better when I actually have a job. Current Music: Iron & Wine - Bird Stealing Bread | | Wednesday, May 4th, 2005 | | 12:10 am |
I'm not dead.
Well, school is almost over. I went and talked to this lady a few days ago about changing my major. It's pretty nuts that my first semester is almost over and my finals start on thursday. I've already taken one, but it was for weight training, so it really doesn't count I don't think. If you fail that class, you have to be pretty damn stupid... or lazy. I've met some pretty cool people this semester, overall I am really glad that I came down here to go to school. Tomorrow I need to do some major studying for my professional ethics exam on thursday, pay the rent, and figure out where I am going to live next year. I met someone new tonight and she was pretty attractive... oh well, whatever. I am going to San Marcos on Tuesday, then Wednesday morning I am heading back to Plano with my friend Sara, but we have to stop by all of these ridiculous places to help her mom plan some kind of trip for the seniors at her church back in Plano, so it might take closer to 6 hours to get back... oh well, I miss talking to her and I am sure we will have a good time. Current Music: The Police - Message in a bottle. | | Saturday, March 26th, 2005 | | 7:58 am |
water + strawberry nutri-grain bar
I am worth $2,229,126.00, bitches I am also eating breakfast right now and trying to decide if I should go to San Antonio (and what time if I do), if I should go do laundry, and if I should go work out right now. I hope everyone has a killer weekend. I have a bunch of stuff to do in the next few weeks, wish me luck. Current Mood:  tiredCurrent Music: Bright Eyes | | Monday, March 21st, 2005 | | 12:22 pm |
| | Monday, March 7th, 2005 | | 11:16 pm |
I don't think I have recieved any good news from anyone this week... it surely appears to be the week from hell so far. I am sure things will turn around though, for all of us. Current Music: Earth, Wind, and Fire- September | | Sunday, January 9th, 2005 | | 3:41 pm |
I just thought I would let everyone know that I am moving to Corpus for school tomorrow. So.... yeah. Current Music: The Hippos (that's right bitches) | | Monday, December 20th, 2004 | | 2:47 pm |
Hey gang....
I went and saw garden state last night at the dollar theater with Lindsey, Chris, and Chris's girlfriend Lindsey (yeah, both of the girls are named Lindsey). Lindsey (mine) has been telling me how much I need to see that move for the past month. It was a good one I must admit. Last night while I was driving home from her apartment I started to think about different things that happened a long time ago or people that I have met and it started to make me feel old. It was kind of strange thinking about something and then thinking "yeah that was about 5 years ago..... holy shit! 5 years!?" I'm going to miss the hell out of Lindsey when she leaves (Wednsday). It is just a really shitty feeling. We were talking about it last night at her apartment. How I can't remember the last time I felt like this with someone, hell maybe I haven't. I just feel so comfortable around her, so confident, relaxed.... it's strange. For whatever reason I feel totally comfortable singing again, like really singing and not just the mumbled crap I usually throw out there. It might not seem like a big deal, but that really is for me. I normally don't sing in front of people. I just feel like we should be together, but I know that we won't, and it eats me up inside. I guess I will just make the best of the next two days. Oh yeah, I was accepted to A&M Corpus, still deciding if I am going to go there though. Current Music: Iron and Wine | | Thursday, December 16th, 2004 | | 10:14 am |
Don't you hate it when you say something and then it just blows up in your face? (or at least feels like it did) Last night I had a dream that I was living in an apartment complex in Austin and there were a bunch of other people that I knew back in highschool that were living there also, they also had all of these machines in the complex that we could put our change in and it would give us bills back. I might be moving to Corpus Christi in about a month I guess. We will have to wait and see.... here's hoping I am out of here. My sister has said since she went away to college that after leaving Plano, the only rreason you would want to come back it just to visit, and you would never want to live there again. I wonder if she is right... I bet she is. Current Mood:  blank | | Thursday, November 25th, 2004 | | 1:38 am |
| | Monday, November 15th, 2004 | | 12:10 am |
I can't stand it when people say they will call and then they don't do it. Oh well, she probably just forgot. My eyes are really dry right now. I wonder when I am supposed to change my contacts out next.... probably like a month ago. P.S. I just farted. | | Sunday, November 14th, 2004 | | 2:36 am |
i
I met this girl from one of my classes a few weeks ago... so far she is pretty awesome. I've been playing my acoustic guitar a whole bunch more lately. I'm still playing the drums way more though, and the bass way less. I am trying to think of a few new CDs to purchase. I a also thinking about switching phone services because my phone is broken again and I can't get the insurance on it because I would have to do that within 30 days of activation. I am thinking about going with cingular, but I would have to break my contract... I wonder how much that would cost. | | Sunday, October 3rd, 2004 | | 3:40 am |
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